if I say I'm over you, but I still miss you sometimes...
For whatever that went wrong
we have not talked for so long
And sometimes the feeling came back
when that light rail
slowly moves from that station...
there
there were so much memories...
I learnt my first kiss,
or decent ones :)
But now it is all gone
The station is still there...
Same old people, same old scene
But you are not present
And I am not excited to get off there no more
Funny
I shrugged
and the door closed
smiled, here I go again
4.27.2008
4.26.2008
haizzz... parents
Just got off the phone with mom... so frustrated. The more I talk to my parents, the more I feel like I have made a right decision to leave them and came here.
Why cant she just be nice and ask about my feelings, about my graduation, about my friends, rather than just calling to check if I have paid off my bill, my balance, or whether I will REALLY get a HARD COPY of the diploma, since its very important to show employers the diploma when you're looking for a job!
Asian parents sure DO NOT know how to take care of their kids emotionally! They think that as long as they're giving their kids enough financial support, they can tell us to do whatever they want (maybe Im being too extreme, but that is seriously the case of my parents).
Dad called in the other day when he was in LasVegas. Awkward. He told me he got to VeGas, and that was it. It was silent. Then he went on telling me to finish my exam well, and we hung up.
Sometimes I am so jealous with the American kids. Their parents are like their good friends. Whatever problems the kids have, they talk to their parents. I'm jealous when the kids her talk so proudly about their parents, about how they hang out together once in a while. Their parents picked them up to go eat out. Their parents send them "care package" at the beginning of the semester. Their parents paid their car-insurance. Their parents watch TV with them and discuss about political debate. Their parents do all the moving-in works for them into the dorms... their parents...
Maybe because Asian parents don't do such things so the Asian kids always try to be the brave one, the one that can handles everything on their own, or the independent one. That's kind of good in a way because I really like how I have become.
But sometimes, it just hurt, you know, that I couldn't talk to my parents as one of my friends.
Why cant she just be nice and ask about my feelings, about my graduation, about my friends, rather than just calling to check if I have paid off my bill, my balance, or whether I will REALLY get a HARD COPY of the diploma, since its very important to show employers the diploma when you're looking for a job!
Asian parents sure DO NOT know how to take care of their kids emotionally! They think that as long as they're giving their kids enough financial support, they can tell us to do whatever they want (maybe Im being too extreme, but that is seriously the case of my parents).
Dad called in the other day when he was in LasVegas. Awkward. He told me he got to VeGas, and that was it. It was silent. Then he went on telling me to finish my exam well, and we hung up.
Sometimes I am so jealous with the American kids. Their parents are like their good friends. Whatever problems the kids have, they talk to their parents. I'm jealous when the kids her talk so proudly about their parents, about how they hang out together once in a while. Their parents picked them up to go eat out. Their parents send them "care package" at the beginning of the semester. Their parents paid their car-insurance. Their parents watch TV with them and discuss about political debate. Their parents do all the moving-in works for them into the dorms... their parents...
Maybe because Asian parents don't do such things so the Asian kids always try to be the brave one, the one that can handles everything on their own, or the independent one. That's kind of good in a way because I really like how I have become.
But sometimes, it just hurt, you know, that I couldn't talk to my parents as one of my friends.
4.23.2008
graduation... um... so what?
Yeah, graduation, so what?
It didn't really hit me yet I guess. Every one asked me how it feels like to be graduating, and I do the same thing. But strangely enough, I just kinda blanked out most of times, not knowing what to say. Not that I don't have any feeling, but I guess I don't think of this too big as a change for me.
A lot of changes took place last year in my life. I was in Vietnam for the whole summer struggling for jobs. I ended my first relationship. I went study abroad in Japan and lived with a host family. I came back to Vietnam for Xmas break. Then I was back in the States being a college student ago.
... Things keep moving on. Things keep changing. and I... I also changed.
Graduation is just going to be a little bit bigger of a change than other ones that I've faced. I'm very excited to accept it.
I'm happy for a change.
In fact. I am a change.
It didn't really hit me yet I guess. Every one asked me how it feels like to be graduating, and I do the same thing. But strangely enough, I just kinda blanked out most of times, not knowing what to say. Not that I don't have any feeling, but I guess I don't think of this too big as a change for me.
A lot of changes took place last year in my life. I was in Vietnam for the whole summer struggling for jobs. I ended my first relationship. I went study abroad in Japan and lived with a host family. I came back to Vietnam for Xmas break. Then I was back in the States being a college student ago.
... Things keep moving on. Things keep changing. and I... I also changed.
Graduation is just going to be a little bit bigger of a change than other ones that I've faced. I'm very excited to accept it.
I'm happy for a change.
In fact. I am a change.
4.20.2008
haircut
Dont get me wrong. I loved my hair. I think its so cute and its the best haircut that suits my face, no wonder I have it for like 4 years in college now. But thinking of 90% of all Vietnamese have this exact same hair style makes me feel "uncute" in a way. So I decided to be back to the tomboyish hair that I used to have during summer.
Pictures will be posted later.
P.S.: Although I save a lot of money on water, shampoo and conditioners for short hair, I realized I have to spend also more $$$ on wax and time on stylizing it. LOL!
Pictures will be posted later.
P.S.: Although I save a lot of money on water, shampoo and conditioners for short hair, I realized I have to spend also more $$$ on wax and time on stylizing it. LOL!
4.15.2008
Falling for you...
Yes I am.
For so long, this is all I have been waiting for.
Although we just met to day but I already felt it. We've made for each other, baby.
Remember today at the mall, I was still trying to get to know you. You were quite shy, but tender and sweet.
Your smell is still wandering all over my wrists. I keep sniffing it the whole day, and the only thing came to my mind is that I need you. I want you. like right now!
You're just so special. I don't care about my CHANEL anymore, although a lot of people have complimented me on it. But I think you're more perfect for me. And you're like only $40. I think I'm gonna getcha, one way or another!!!
So madly obsessed with you now, Escada Moon Sparkle!!
For so long, this is all I have been waiting for.
Although we just met to day but I already felt it. We've made for each other, baby.
Remember today at the mall, I was still trying to get to know you. You were quite shy, but tender and sweet.
Your smell is still wandering all over my wrists. I keep sniffing it the whole day, and the only thing came to my mind is that I need you. I want you. like right now!
You're just so special. I don't care about my CHANEL anymore, although a lot of people have complimented me on it. But I think you're more perfect for me. And you're like only $40. I think I'm gonna getcha, one way or another!!!
So madly obsessed with you now, Escada Moon Sparkle!!
4.08.2008
I want a new haircut!
Well, I'm being so productive. This is my third entry of the day for this blog!!
Anyway, I really a new haircut, so badly. I'm tired of this stupid not-long-or-short-enough hairstyle. So Im gonna cut it short before my mom can yells at me, hehe :D
Here is what I'm thinking of:
Anyway, I really a new haircut, so badly. I'm tired of this stupid not-long-or-short-enough hairstyle. So Im gonna cut it short before my mom can yells at me, hehe :D
Here is what I'm thinking of:
why do I smoke?
So I was asked to stay upstair in the library today to work. Pretty what I do upstair is to sit there and look fabulous (lol)... and writing blogs about "smoking", which I WAS pretty much against last year.
Anyway, enough introduction, I'm gonna cut to the chase with the argument:
There are 2 reasons I smoke:
1. Flavor (the vanilla cigarettes taste awesome and the smoke come out smell just like vanilla, and it's not disgusting at all)
2. An excuse to go outside get some fresh air. People will think you're crazy just going outside standing by yourself getting fresh air, right. So smoking makes it a perfect reason. Plus, you get to ask people to go out with you for a little chit-chat catching up on things. So I don't see anything wrong with that.
Some people might argue that smoking causes cancer. Well, eventhough it's true, I must say I don't plan to live a long life. I don't want to be a burden for my kids and of course I want to live till I'm old enough to still be able to have all my senses function (listening, talking, smelling, seeing, tasting, and so forth).
Anyway, in case you were wondering what the causes for death are. Here is a reference table of causes of death that have been studied and published in 2002.
http://www.benbest.com/lifeext/causes.html
So it is likely that you will die because of one of these. Now pick your favorite as I have picked mine. (2)
Anyway, enough introduction, I'm gonna cut to the chase with the argument:
There are 2 reasons I smoke:
1. Flavor (the vanilla cigarettes taste awesome and the smoke come out smell just like vanilla, and it's not disgusting at all)
2. An excuse to go outside get some fresh air. People will think you're crazy just going outside standing by yourself getting fresh air, right. So smoking makes it a perfect reason. Plus, you get to ask people to go out with you for a little chit-chat catching up on things. So I don't see anything wrong with that.
Some people might argue that smoking causes cancer. Well, eventhough it's true, I must say I don't plan to live a long life. I don't want to be a burden for my kids and of course I want to live till I'm old enough to still be able to have all my senses function (listening, talking, smelling, seeing, tasting, and so forth).
Anyway, in case you were wondering what the causes for death are. Here is a reference table of causes of death that have been studied and published in 2002.
FORMAL NAME | INFORMAL NAME | % ALL DEATHS |
|---|---|---|
| (1) Diseases of the heart | heart attack (mainly) | 28.5% |
| (2) Malignant neoplasms | cancer | 22.8% |
| (3) Cerebrovascular disease | stroke | 6.7% |
| (4) Chronic lower respiratory disease | emphysema, chronic bronchitis | 5.1% |
| (5) Unintentional injuries | accidents | 4.4% |
| (6) Diabetes mellitus | diabetes | 3.0% |
| (7) Influenza and pneumonia | flu & pneumonia | 2.7% |
| (8) Alzheimer's Disease | Alzheimer's senility | 2.4% |
| (9) Nephritis and Nephrosis | kidney disease | 1.7% |
| (10) Septicemia | systemic infection | 1.4% |
| (11) Intentional self-harm | suicide | 1.3% |
| (12) Chronic Liver/Cirrhosis | liver disease | 1.1% |
| (13) Essential Hypertension | high blood pressure | 0.8% |
| (14) Assault | homicide | 0.7% |
| (15) All other causes | other | 17.4% |
So it is likely that you will die because of one of these. Now pick your favorite as I have picked mine. (2)
personalities vs accomplishment
Its hard to acknowledge someone's accomplishments when you know pretty much a lot about their pasts or their personalities.
Say someone has done smth quite horrible to you, and later in their life, they accomplish something. Do you think you can believe it, or you're still thinking that is another trick they again are able to pull off.
Or maybe it is just a matter of forgiving. But someone I couldn't help but hanging out to the idea that a person can NOT change, unless something EXTREMELY SIGNIFICANT happens.
04/08/08
Say someone has done smth quite horrible to you, and later in their life, they accomplish something. Do you think you can believe it, or you're still thinking that is another trick they again are able to pull off.
Or maybe it is just a matter of forgiving. But someone I couldn't help but hanging out to the idea that a person can NOT change, unless something EXTREMELY SIGNIFICANT happens.
04/08/08
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